Archive for January, 2008

ThunderStrucked

Last Saturday marked a lot of unexpected events.

It was a day filled with a series of misfortunate and fortunate events. The dinner at night was really off-tracked from what i had been anticipated. Despite of a hall equiped with lighting, air-conditioner, music, elegant dishes; what we got was a very muddy field, warm and stuffy air, cups and table cloth that was soaked with rain water, dishes that i could not have asked for in such a circumstances, etc etc. Nevertheless, i believed, i strongly believed that we had what it take to make things right, or at least i had what it take to fix things right. It was why i started to transformed myself to what it looked like a waiter working for the event organizer, it was a right thing to do considering my attire, but it was indeed a thing i enjoyed doing it as everyone started to felt better eventually. Having needed to leave earlier than expected, i was not sure if that would be the call for that day but i felt that it should not have ended just like that.

Great thing happened when you agreed that we should gone on to at least satisfy our appetite, what was already promising and good was made to become better when you requested to go further than where we would have ended up had you not voiced your thought. It was also unexpected that i would turned left instead of turning right after the toll, yeah this time the unexpectation was honored to me by my nervous system. Things started to turn into purple despite it was dark outside the car. Stories and feelings were being spoken out and shared in a comfortable atmosphere, yeah i felt comfortable, just like usual. Destinations seemed to be so tiny and unimportant as what was the matter of the world was that the journey was really sweet enough to last for a life time. However sweet though it might be, there were really things that you said that i had the other way of saying it, i chose to let you find out the answer by your own, so i hope that you will really try to discover the better side and the truth.

Again. Unexpectation took me for granted as i followed you into the wrong wash-room, only realizing it after you shown me your puzzled look and question me. Wow, that was not all for the day because this time it would be you who took me unexpectedly. Perhaps you are wondering how did you manage to do that, but it was actually the questions you were asking me as we en route back that really was out of my wildest expectations that you would be asking it out. I do not know what did i shuntted your questions by giving you half true-half foolish answers in a kiddingly manner, but it was struggling when i was responding because i was not sure if it was right for me to tell you the factful truth in that circumstances, one thing i dun like to touch that while i was driving as well. But it was after that night that i found myself cursing at my inability to speak up my mind, and that guilt has been tailing me for days since then.

Truthfully, i really like “Wait For You” by Elliot Yamin.  ~wink~

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我们的方式

虽然你喜欢讲我很烂,但却让我更自信。

虽然你总是说要‘叭’我,但却让我更自满。

虽然你习惯叫我继续,但我总是变得更静。

虽然我喜欢开你玩笑,但你却真的会笑。

虽然我经常乱发言,但你总是在聆听。

你说我没有聆听的技巧,我说你没有管理情绪的技巧。

我说你没有表达的技巧,你说我没有发问的技巧。

也许真的不是那么巧,但这就是我们相处的技巧。

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A Spot Of Bother

Been feeling odd.

Odd because it was not a feeling that one would describe it as normal.

Odd because everything seemed to be so out-of-place.                          

Been wanting to say sorry.

Sorry because i have not been good at taking care of you.

Sorry because i did not take enough notice of your well-being and feelings.

Sorry for not able to chase away your headaches.

Sorry for so many things that was against my wish, which made things seemed much difficult..

Been wanting to tell you.

To tell you that ‘ If something starts to worry you, just let me know, will you?’

To tell you that ‘ I would put down whatever i was doing and come to your call.’

To tell you that ‘ I feel most human when i am with you.’

Been trying to express.

Express how i feel about you.

Express how much i care bout you.

Express how much you mean to me.

Been telling myself

That i will remain where i am.

That i will be a good boy.

A good boy that waits patiently.

A good boy that will wait for you.

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